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Monday, 28 July 2014

Shadows 2


This is the continuation to a previous post back in... wow... 2012. You can refresh your memory (as I did) by clicking here.


She stands at the doorway of the study, spying on her father. Hastily, he trashes about the small room rummaging through the books and sheets of paper that once filled the now emptied shelves and drawers lying on the floor. Piles of paper are heaped into the fire place. He rips pages from his notebook and tosses the bits along with their remains to the flames. She had never seen her father like this before however she was not afraid of him, only curious to why this forever loving and jovial guardian was disturbed.
Earlier, she had eavesdropped on her parents discussing the need to move from their home. The only home she knew. Her mother had given birth to her in this house and by the time she grew into the young lady that she was today, she already knew all of its secrets. The leaks in the roof her father always planned to fix, the creaks in the steps and the noise the rusted pipes would make when the heater was turned on. Though she could not fully hear what was being said - as they spoke, her father’s face was pale and he trembled uncontrollably. She saw the fright on her mother’s face and without question, agreed to her husband’s request then immediately began packing.   
As she stands there, her eyes are pinned on him but he does not acknowledge her presence. The fire place is lit and his slender figure looks much robust being cast on the walls. On the mantle the only remaining figment still in its original place is a photo of her mother. For a moment he pauses at the picture, reliving the memory from that day. He strikes a fist against the wall.  
She runs to him.
“Daddy” she says, and before he realizes she has already wrapped her arms around his legs.
“It’s going to be okay darling” he responds sensing the worry in her voice.
“What are you doing?”
“Nothing dear. Daddy needs to get rid of a few things but I promise I will tidy up. Would you like to help?” She manages to smile, accepting her father’s words.
“Yes I would”
“Great. I seem to have misplaced the scissor. Would you be a dear to go ask your mom for the other?”
“Sure daddy.” She responds, already scampering out of the office.
“…and no running through the hall.”
As she makes her way down the hallway the sound of a glass shattering ricochets off the halls from the study. Her frightened scream is silenced by her mother’s hands now over her mouth. She’s pulled into the nearby closet. The fear of the unknown sends chills down her back.
“Mhairi…” her mother whispers, “I need you to listen to me okay?”
Frozen in silence, listening to the footsteps coming down the hall, she does not answer.
“Mhairi!’ her mother repeats sternly.
She looks up for a moment to respond “Ye.. yes mother”
“I need you to stay in here. No matter what you hear do not come out. You understand?”
“Are we being robbed mommy? Who are the men in the house?” she asked, dismissing the request from her mother.
“That is not important right now. I need you to promise me that you will stay in this room okay?”
As uneasy as the request was, she agrees. Then with a kiss on her forehead - as she would get every night before bed - she watched her mother walk out the door. Again, her curiosity got the best of her and followed her mother without her knowledge.

She could hear her father speaking to the men. This was not a robbery as he seemed to know who they were and why they were there. She saw her mother enter the room and a shriek followed. She hesitated for a moment, worried that she would be grabbed just like her mother if she got to close. Yet she needed to know what was going on.  
Through the crack in the door her father was surrounded by masked men while her mother was seated with a gun pointed to her head. Mhairi gasped at the sight of the peril.
“You know why we are here doctor” One of the men seemingly in command said. He was the only person without a mask but his head was held down while his top hat covered his face.
“You are wasting your time, I do not know what you are speaking of” the doctor managed to respond. With his unfavourable response one of the men punches him in the face. A thick stream of blood ran down his nose.
 “Now… I am not here to torture or scare so I will make this very simple for you.” The man in the top hat began, “I will count to 3 and if you do provide me with what I seek, your wife dies.”
“Please… I'm begging you... leave her out of this”
 “1”
“Ava… I'm sorry” her father said, looking at her teary eyed mother.
 “2”
“Ava. I love…”
“3”
The sound of the gunshot was not loud yet the sound of her mother’s fragile body hitting the floor sank her heart. She could not scream, her mouth opened but nothing came out. She paces backwards from the doorway, visions of her mother’s limp body flashes through her mind as she silently sobbed silently to herself. Her father cries violently from the top of his lungs after witnessing the death of his wife before his eyes. In a violent rage he shoves one of his captors simultaneously disarming him of his weapon then pointing it to the man in the top hat.
“Don’t be stupid doctor; you know I cannot be harmed.” The man advised. Without a word, her father with a last look at his now dead wife lying in a pool of her own blood, turned the gun on himself and pulled the trigger. The picture of his wife hanging on the wall was splattered with blood and brain fragments.
The shock could not be contained this time around as Mhairi screamed for her father. The man in the top hat looked in her direction, his eyes glowed an unearthly red colour as he shouted to the other men...
“Kill her!”


.......to be continued again........... maybe....

Olsfred James 2014©

Alone

Imagine…
Waking up one day to…
Nothing
No birds chirping
No voices piercing through the radio
No vehicles with horns blowing
No footsteps busily going along their way
Empty streets…
I would imagine the initial feeling of doubt…
As the despair of being alone creeps
The hopelessness…
No longer surrounded by the confusion of the world
Trying to make sense of it all
Would you scream?
Shout a name or two in hopes of an answer?
Take to the streets to validate what you already knew?
That you are alone in this world
Would the thought of this cursed immortality break you?
Living your days… Alone.

Imagine that.
Think over it a moment.

Let it sink in.


Olsfred James 2014©

Thursday, 17 July 2014

Ripper

Here we are you and I
Trapped together in a war of wits
Who will be the first to falter?
Who will be the first to quit?
The first to fall, to admit defeat
You are my pray and… I?
I am your hunter
A killer? By all means, “The Ripper” of course
Reveal my name if you survive
Scream it until your lungs are hoarse
Surgical insertions examining your mind
These traumas are self-inflicted
Reworking the electrodes I find
Never initially I thought
Revealing my weapon was your kryptonite
Slashing my way into history
A hostile takeover before your very sight.
Yet here I stand with my scalpel in hand
As you persistently press forward
Searching for the meaning,
Striving to understand
Your eyes bleed with anxiety,
Damage impossible to mend
As I leave you begging for help,
Gasping for a breath before meeting your end.

Olsfred James 2014©

Wednesday, 16 July 2014

Canvas

He sketches
She watches on
Poised and still
As a rose in the summer sun
Disciplined an unforgiving in her disposition
Blooming to perfection.
Swiftly across his once blank canvas
Inch by inch
Frame by frame
Her charcoaled figure is brought to life
Her radiance is captivating  
The sensuality in her curves
Effortlessly captured in his portrait.
She is comfortable in her skin
And he is comfortable with her nudity 
Intuitive to her beauty within.
Her hands coiled above her head
Wrapped around the pole at the stage middle
Her back - arched
Her legs - apart
She teases with a smile
Enticing and summoning
Suggestive to the need for embrace
He smiles back
His concentration is stretched thin
Between the reality and his creation before him
His fingers replicate the trails of his eyes
Detailing the outline of his subject.
Both astute to the tension in the air
Yet the reminder of why they could not be
Rested neatly only a few feet away on the cabinet
Diamond studded engraved, “Forever”
Revealing her kaleidoscopic reflection
Taunting her decision to step down from her resting place
Restricting his urge to put away his tools.
This was their final session together
The last meeting of their private rendezvous
She would return to the confinement of her life
And he, to the world that awaiting his gift
Saddening was the thought
Only to be together amongst the scribbles of his page.


Olsfred James 2014©


Sunday, 29 June 2014

Extract

My eyes flutter
Trying to make sense of my surroundings.
The striped leather paneled ball rolls into focus
Then I suddenly remember what happened.
My face hurt and felt worn where it was struck
I guess it was my fault
Punishment for gawking at her
A fault that I would not mind repeating.
She stood over me.
Her bright eyes filled with concern
Assumed she had hurt me.
Though being literally knocked off my feet
Landing flat on my back
With a wad of sand against my face
I was fine
But she didn’t know that
Everything but my pride was perfectly intact
So I laid there
Milking the embarrassment just a bit longer.
Her long hair swayed in the cool breeze
Sheltering me from the afternoon sun
Her pursed lips separated
Panting for oxygen
From running to my aid
We had never been this close before
Her sun kissed cheeks
Begged to be caressed.
She firmly grabbed my hand.
Somewhere in my daydreaming
My hands grew a mind of their own
Making an attempt to actually touch her…
Well that was awkward!
Her teammates stood off
Unconcerned of what transpired.
A few slight chuckles could be heard
Seemingly eager to continue on with their game
With a quick tug to my arm
I bounced to my feet
“Take it easy. Are you okay?”
She spoke to me!
It wasn’t the usual greeting pleasantries
I would receive when sat amongst our classmates
But an actual statement directed only to me.
Her voice was so soft
So comforting
Inspiration to the next classical symphony
I stood there
Staring into her eyes
Until my brain finally processed the question
“Ah, yes… I’m fine… no I mean I’m Fred. Wait no… I’m okay. My name is Fred”
Clearly getting ahead of myself
The embarrassment came back like a brick to the face
My posture slumped
Wrapping both arms behind my back
 “I must have really hit you hard”
She said with a smile
Clearly sensing my uneasiness
I attempted to make my next response less blundering
“Yes, you did hit me hard…”
My brain omitted the “…from the first time I saw you” bit with intent
I could only assume the level of creepiness it would suggest
But I think she could tell
Not the creepy sentiment but the genuine attraction I had for her.
Maybe by the way I slurred my words
Looking her dead in the eyes
Or maybe it was something else
Like the general mood of it all
The afternoon sun gleaming off the ocean bed
The lazy clouds drifting to the horizon
The fresh oceanic air filling our lungs
With the remnants of waves crashing at our feet.
Her friends beckoned for her return
“Brianne, are you coming back or what!?”
She waved them off
Without even looking their way
They grumbled in disappointment
Before resuming their game a player short
As she stood there staring back at me…

“So... What next?”


Olsfred James 2014©

Absinthe


I have forgotten.
Forgotten how it feels to regret.
To say “I'm Sorry” without meaning otherwise
To dry your tears
To rest your head against my chest
To assure you that everything will be alright.
The ice in my veins now reflect my attitude
As the smile on your face becomes a permanent frown
Right side up or is it the wrong side down?
It would be easier to close your eyes
Pretend this is a dream
Wouldn't it?
Yet, hidden in disguise
Was the piercing fragile truth
That this would be our demise.
Why did I end the serenity?
Disturb the calm of your night
Watching you fall
As you collide into my mold of lies
Your heart, shattering on impact
While I step aside to watch the pieces scatter
Broken and lost forever.
Confused by my lack of emotion
Trying to make sense of it all
Still lost
Still assuming
Still…
I am the architect of this melancholy
Crafting these impenetrable walls
Regressed to the voices in my head
Away from you all
Round of applause; praise thee
Standing ovation for this colossal folly
Until I drown in absinthe
Filled with my regret
Distilled and highly potent
Yet effective only to fixate
My loss in perspective
Madness has a home here
I have found my brother in misery
As I battle the torment
Of these unyielding hallucinogenic trickery.


Olsfred James 2014©

Friday, 4 April 2014

Veil



If it happens at all…
The sex is routine like Saturday’s laundry.
A process forever considered undesirable
Could literally now be completed with her eyes closed -
Ironically, they usually are.
He gets home
The stench of alcohol and cigarette lazily follow
The misplaced steps of a doting drunk
Each footfall echoes through the hallways.
Amidst the disorientation, eventually, he finds her
- Somehow, he always does-

Another has never been with her the way he had
Had never seen her they way he had
The talks of saving herself for the right person were futile
He could never had been the right person
She was never saving herself for him
Eerily, his shadow looms over the already darkened room
A silhouette of the door frame supporting his weight
Stretching across the floor, falling short at the foot of her bed
Then slowly, knowingly, it creeps, further and further unto her sheets

The covers are tossed aside
Her racing heart stops as she fights back the tears
She hears the clanging of his belt buckle
Then the hard thump of his trouser hitting the floor
There is nowhere to run as he climbs onto her bed
Grabs hold of her legs
Pulling her closely
Tossing her slender frame over on its back

She was confined beneath his robust frame
Incapable of escaping his grasp liberally feeling his way around her body
Sucking on her supple breast
With arms stretched and pinned above her head
The last time she made an attempt to fight
He had beaten her numb
Unwillingly, tonight she concedes
All emotions leaves her face as he forces his way in

With each thrust he would wince
While her body laid deadened
Paralyzed to his touch
Paralyzed to the chafing of her womanhood
There is no passion or pleasure
But he stands erect and piles himself within her
Grunting with self satisfaction
And blatant disregard of hers
Beads of sweat accumulating on his forehead
Only to snowball their way into droplets onto her face

And as he expires within her fold
Every muscle within his body contracts
Clenching the sheets with an exhausted bellow 
Until finally, he slumps flimsily unto her
The rapid beats of his heart recede
He struggles to exhale from cigarette tainted lungs
But quickly drifts off
Her eyes are glued to the ceiling fan
It does nothing to alleviate the room temperature
But she dares not stare anywhere else
Never at the haze filled eyes of this man
This pitiful excuse of someone
Someone who was meant to love, protect and provide for his family
Someone who had failed
Had taken advantage of her innocence
And warped her joy of a possible childhood into hatred


Olsfred James 2014©