Seconds

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3.5 seconds…

Taking resistance

Mass

Distance

And velocity into account…

In 3.5 seconds I would hit the deserted asphalt.
I couldn’t imagine with such a short amount of time

30 years could flash before my eyes.

Even without enthralling adventures

That’s just a lot of your years to fit into seconds.

You do however

You always do - it seems.

Flashes of the times we spent together

From the unorthodox first meeting

To the many break ups before you finally gave up

When we were good… we were good

But when we were bad… we were really bad

I played a huge part in the prolonged hostility

Hiding behind my pride

Hiding behind my silence

Ignoring your constant attempts at stripping away my amour

Yet, foolishly thinking you would never leave

But here I am…

Awaiting this brain to be switched off

By the unyielding ground

Now seemingly even faster approaching

With less than 3.5 seconds

Basking in the draft of clarity

To find this notion was untrue

The impossible has now become possible

The fracture in my reality.

My insecurities made me half the person I could have been

Yes MY insecurities

They were the ones that hurt you

For not accepting you

For not letting you in

For not holding you enough

For not letting you know how much you mean to mean to me

For not saying I…

 Olsfred James 2015©