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Monday 22 October 2012

Captive


In the silence of the night
I heard the stomp of their horses
Peeking through the makeshift window to see their torches
They found him.
His face was excessively battered
A rope fastened around his neck with his arms bound behind his back
Shoved along by his captures as they straddled along
And as they pushed him to the ground they began beating him
Beating him before our eyes
Punching him and kicking him
Some even rode their horses over him
Mothers muffled the cries of their children
Covered their eyes and forced them to turn away
This was not a sight to be seen
This was not a memory to remember
The latch securing the door flew past my face as it was kicked open
A few made their way to our shed
They questioned us, questioned me
“Who else ran?”
Asked me repeatedly as I stood there
Shaking from the treble in their voice
“No one. I swear”
My mother responded humbly
With their question answered they stormed out
They took him.
Dragged him through the mud and muck
As he fought to be free
Tugging and gripping at the binds around his neck
His bloodshot eyes were filled with fear and tears
Screaming from the top of his lungs
Then coughing from choking on his own spit
They rode long and hard
Hauled for the entire journey at the back of their horses
To the middle of the field
Where the lonely oak tree stood tall
Tonight you have company
They chanted foul names at him
Riveted from the toll of his injuries
And as he laid there we watched
We watched though we knew what was coming
We watched while his bounds were tied to a branch
We watched as he pleaded for forgiveness
We watched as they repeatedly struck him
We watched until they finally set his tattered body a fire
The scent of his burning flesh consumed our small community
An as he hung there as an example to all who may be tempted to follow
I thought to myself this man was a slave, just like me
Killed for his only crime “The Desire To Be Free”.

Control



  
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Fueled with passion her eyes locked into mine. The sweat running from her body made trails my hands were inclined to follow. I have longed for this moment, tirelessly reenacting this fantasy deep within the secret realms of my mind, yet, now its reality, I find difficulty in suppressing the desire to succumb prematurely. Her timed moans and screams are an orgasmic symphony of the pleasures she feels which in-turn boast my ego causing my retrains to be reinforced.
Time seemed to have allowed us solitude as we vigorously explored all secret byways of our bodies. Her hands – so soft as she braced against my chest. Her hair – a smell of lavender as she tipped her head on my shoulder, clasping her legs around me. Her body – simply astounding as I laid her on all fours, her  lower back suspended in mid air awaiting my entry. While the night withered away I knew for sure this would be an experience to remember .

The sunlight was always first to have me welcomed to a new day and after last night’s events I thought it would have been different, oddly enough however my morning remained unchanged from any other as she was gone. The bed cover was slightly folded over suggesting her point of departure and as I surveyed the remainder of my bedroom, I discover the only significant adjustment – a note on my dressing table.
"Thanks". One word, with $300 tucked in the middle. A smile instantly emerges over my face as I remember our past conversation, then again after searching the remainder of my apartment with no signs of her, a slight feeling of being used dawns on me. Thank goodness I don’t have to work today! I thought to myself as I made my way to my bathroom to freshen up.

My day, sadly, was spent fighting the urge of calling her as I went about my regular chore of watching television and working on assessment material to have filed away upon returning to work. Keeping busy did no justice in forgetting the reality that kept poking away at my concentration until, in due course, I sat in my study examining my telephone as if by share will it would ring, with her voice – such a gentle voice – greeting me on the other side.
Ring, Ring, Ring…
Frantically, I stagger from my seat to answer the beckoning call.
“Hello?” I coped too calmly utter.
“Hay bro! How you doing? Guess what? Andrea and I are in your neck of the woods and are on our way over. So finally your soon to be sister-in-law gets to meet ya!”
“Huh… Oh, hay Brandon. That’s great news”
“Are you ok? You don’t sound too excited ‘man. I mean we haven’t seen each other in over…”
“No no. Am fine. Just…” my words are silenced as the beep from the other line interjects. “B, hold a moment for me”
“Yea’ yea’…” he begins as I click over phone lines cutting what I already expect with be one of his famous rants.

“Hello?” I answer, much less stirred with anticipation.
“Hi” her voice echoes on the other side of the phone – such a gentle voice. “I miss you. Sorry about this morning”
“That’s fine, that’s fine” I muttered “How are you?
“Not too bad. I thought of you all day and I was wondering if I could see you later tonight”
“Definitely… I mean. Could you hold for a quick second?”
“Sure”
“Thanks. I will be right with you, please, don’t hang up”. I switch over to Brandon.

“Hay B” I greeted.
“I was still talking a while ago…” he began.
“Yea I know. Sorry about that. What time are you coming over?”
“The time is now chich” he answers using a fond name used for each other.
Making my way to the window and before fully opening my blinds I notice the car pulling into the driveway. Damn it! I muttered to myself. “Open the door we’re here” he says finally before hanging up.

“Hello, are you still there?”
“Hi, yes I am” she responded
“Am sorry but we will have to take a rain check on later. My younger brother is coming over with his fiancĂ© and..”
“It’s ok” she interrupted. “Bye.” the click from her phone leaves me with only the dial tone.
That was kind of rude I thought to myself as a knock from my front door breaks thought an eases my slight embarrassment.


Papercut



Am wanting you so much right now I could cry,
I feel this, I feel them, the tears, readily waiting to flow from my….
Time you cruel bastard!
Why do you do this? Why must this be give… then take?
Why cant I have what is mine??
It’s obvious, don’t make it seem differently because you know and I know it’s true
Why would I have been there? Why at that Time I spent all those emotions...
All those feelings, all those thoughts, all those experiences with you?

Do you know what I am feeling? 24/7 longing for your sexual healing?
Anticipating a kiss, stroking your hair, a touch of your brow, touch of your nose…
Lips pressed against mine… Hands pressed against my chest…
I know you feel it… felt it and I know my heart tells its own tales…
Tall they could be but definitely more real than they should be

It kills me inside, eats away my insides leaving no place to hide
As Time pokes an taunts me, helpless I suffer alone in misery.

Would I do it differently if the future was seen?
Would I regret these words if I knew you knew what they’d mean?
Not now not then but what the could mean…
I would not change it, I would never change it, trap me in this hour glass
Spin me, turn me for with you my love... Forever I would relive it…

I cant read minds I can’t explain what you feel but this love is obvious…
Obvious as day when the sun greets the sky…
Obvious… as the wings I possess when we are together… Drift I do drift I must…
Time you cruel bastard, you left, it left… no more wings no more flight
Time you cruel bastard.

What the fuck!? Why do I feel this emotion inside...
Pain. Love. Joy. Sadness.
This could I could you could we could be so much more
More? More? Love hurts and it knows I don’t stand a fighting chance to these thoughts...
Trapped in my mind so easy to relive so easy to mislead so easy to become forever…
But Time.
You cruel bastard!

But you cant understand can you… you nor fucking Time…
Neither of you understand that I need you both cause without both…
Without it all this is a void and like now… like then… like in Time…
You would should could never be mine.
Farewell.