Nothing

"What do you feel?"

-Emptiness

Yet, how do I relate a feeling so profound?

Like the morphine in my veins had made its way around

It started maybe 3 weeks ago,

I suppose in a way my body was preparing for what was to come next. 

Things that would normally provoke a physical reaction 

In its place there was now... 

"An emptiness inside?"

-Open

My system now numb

Begins to shut down 

I almost thought for a moment I was a sociopath

Like I finally lost it

Something was amiss

"Tried shaking it off?"

-Unshaken

How do I summarize that which can only be felt?

When, at the same time, 

It's like the first stone had no impact the moment they began to pelt

My skin it did welt

In this desolation I dwelt

I suspected my hormones were to blame 

Buried my head in humiliation

"Tell me more...."

-Futile

I compare this to the drifting 

Out into the endless sea

Where the ocean stretches forever

Surrounding....No....Consuming me

I can’t articulate it 

But my words never did it justice

I fought with myself, pondered the thoughts, of this emptiness

"All you ever need is one word"

-Void

I drown

Or the lack thereof, invading my lung

One word summarized all the infinitesimally small feelings 

One word that seems to describe all this.....

.....Yet I still can’t explain what this nothingness has done 

"I think you just did"

-Bareness

Any talking makes no sense like the surrendered last birds' song

Where I am aware I should hurt but my brain does not respond

Perhaps

Or maybe it's just… nothing.

Olsfred James & Gloreen Lake 2015©